Hump Day in the City

Well, talk about your mid-40z thing; the mammogram. 

One of the most controversial screenings to date, there are advocates to mam or not to mam on both sides.
For the record, my mammo today was clear; all looks fine. While most women get 2 pix on each side, I get four because of the surgery sites - the radiologists who read these look at scar tissue and breast tissue VERY carefully !

My first indication that this was not good back in 2007 was NOT from a mammogram, but from a lump that didn't go away after six weeks. I then had a thermogram on Long Island; it is a heat sensitive test, and the areas that were found to be cancer six weeks later showed up on the infrared scan as "red hot" spots. So, I knew long before I knew.
The mammo, the biopsies and all that were not a TOTAL shock - and I am grateful I had this test.
I would highly recommend them for anyone; it was only $350. - quite a nice price for BETTER than mammo information, actually.

So, what else is a 40z to do today ? I had a few minutes between the radiologist and the surgeon, so on my way I stopped at Williams and Sonoma; sort of a booby tradition with me. I sent my sister there during my second surgery to buy me a present. She came back with a Caphlon pan :) I bought three spatulas today because mine were GROSS !
One of them has a gingerbread man on it; PERFECT !

So there's day two of my blog; tomorrow I will tell you about the community meeting I went to tonight.
Hot stuff in Inwood, let me tell ya !
Love and kisses, Annie

Night night ??

So here it is. 10pm and no one to say good night to - other than the cat, who has NO interest in sleep at this point - she is getting her second wind; nocturnal creature and all. I'm happy for her, really.

Today I asked myself," what makes you think that everyone should really 'question with boldness' as proposed by Thomas Jefferson?" and not be afraid of loosing their jobs and friends.

Maybe a moment I had today when I saw my future become a sea of red ink at the prospect of a national health care plan that will compromise the availability as well as quality of care that I have enjoyed, particularly these last two years.
Maybe it was when a colleague of mine told me she hadn't been able to pull the monies together for a consult with a top drawer oncologist - not something that one can put off indefinitely, you know ?
Maybe its knowing that my mammogram is tomorrow and despite my bravado of being "so over it" and dismissive, at times, of even having had cancer, I am scared, ever so slightly, that it will come back.

Regardless of the reason I am resolved to live my most honest life each day; beginning with myself. It is not easy, not pretty and from time to time I have to apologize; not easy for me to do. But, in wishing to be "the change you want to see," I will sally forth and not only question with boldness, but listen without interrupting; an equally endangered social skill.

Nigh nigh...