Now before you get all excited and politicized and polarized and opinionated, just listen, well READ for a moment. I do try to look at a variety of views and take good parts from what the kaleidoscope of speakers has to offer; sometimes the pickings are slim, but, it gets like that at the end of the buffet line at Golden Corral, too.
Say what ever about Beck, but I admire his humility in his very public ownership of being an alcoholic, as is demonstrated by his reference to it this very evening. He has other engaging qualities; and he is funny; he will be the first to laugh at himself within a minute of being the Grim Reaper of Doom & Gloom for America's future. So, that said, here's the take away message I had.
Get your sh** together, Anne.
Grow up. Face your fears. Take responsibility.
Do the hard thing.
Make the tough choices.
Do it now; while you are only 45, and you have a lot of time to fix and reinvest in yourself.
In direct terms, that means; pay off the credit card debt. Put the cards away.
Do without things - stop spending money on impulse stupid stuff, (electric pencil sharpeners NOT included).
Take care of yourself - deal with the body stuff.
Get rid of the clutter that has insidiously gathered in your residence of over 14 years now.
Remind those you love that you love them; they need to hear it.
Use the resources around you make what is old, new again.
Reread some books, chapters, journals that inspire you.
Borrow books, don't buy them.
I am happy, healthy, honest, trustworthy, smart, loved. Act like it.
No one owes you anything; but you owe faceless institutions a lot; get on it.
I went to cancel an order I had placed on HSN just over a week ago. There was no record of it.
ANYWHERE ! I guess it didn't go through; I am thankful. It is a sign I am headed in the right direction. Right, as in correct, political affiliation not withstanding.
What else ?
So, looks like I won't be going to OG this summer; but I can find another way to take a break somewhere and enjoy myself. I have a great NYC pad; clean it up, clear it out; don't be afraid to through stuff away - or recycle it. I am going to have to work to fund my further course study but that is an investment - different than an expense. The returns will be seen next year.
So, if you see that I am dining out less, (but mind you, that doesn't mean a draconian abstinence from dining out), carrying my own Gluten Free lunches and snacks about you now know why ! I am going to knuckle down and work toward some inner peace.
Much love to you all !